Saturday, September 26, 2015

17 months later.....

I have not updated this in quite awhile. When I last wrote, I was going vegan , Coraline had weaned, and some of my anxiety had ceased. Since then we gave moved states to live on the beach, had another perfect baby girl, and finally got the teeth pulled in June (2015). I started this blog September 2013 when a dentist told us to pull immediately or a blood infection would kill my 2 year old. If you go back to that time you can tell how broken, depressed, angry and stressed I was. I did not sleep, I did not eat. I did not let my baby have bananas or sweet apples. I made her eat eggs in ghee and homemade yogurt that I couldn't even stomach myself. When we visited our family I had boxes full of medicines, toothpastes, homeopathic pills taking over our car. I had no joy left inside of me and even now I am struggling to get it back. I get asked for advice so often now and yet I will forever feel like a failure. Like I am not worthy to give the advice because it didn't work for us anyway. After it all I wish so much I could make that time of our life more carefree. Night after night I prayed and cried to God to heal her. I was angry at everyone around me. Embarrassed to go to playdates. Scared to give her any form of sugar what so ever. Even now at the age of 4 she is terrified of sugary stuff. In some ways it is great but in other ways it hurts so much. Is she so anxious because of me? If we did not go on this journey I would have never discovered GMOs, Weston Price, documentaries about our food and what the government is doing to it. I have made so many friends from this who went through the same thing. They are each so special to me and I could have never gone through this without them.

I am often emailed or messaged online for help with tooth decay. To be honest I do not feel like I am worthy to give advice. After all, my kid has 3 crowns and four missing teeth. When we meet other "crunchy" moms I always think how shitty they must think I am. How much sugar and crap I probably feed her. After all that did happen back in Tennessee, it's hard to let my guard down. The only advice I can give is not to repeat my mistakes. Don't over charge your credit card with a million supplements you can't afford. Yes, the fermented cod liver oil is amazing and certainly helps, but if you can't afford it it's okay! Get it another month and focus on good foods. MI paste really did help. The ingredients aren't wonderful but neither is surgery so you have to pick your battles. We use Xyliwhite toothpaste which has been great and smells wonderful. Earthpaste is good too but doesn't taste great. Xylitol mints are okay but not perfect for the gut. Coraline mostly bit hers so it wasn't even killing bacteria in her mouth. Bone broth and a good diet is key. Real whole foods. Meat, raw dairy, vegetables and fruit. They will tell you to limit fruit but in this world today we should be so grateful our children want fruit and not cheetos. Count your blessings. Allow certain foods for special occasions. It is okay. Enjoy their childhood while you can. We are still gluten free and will probably never go back. It has been an easy adjustment for us.

We made the decision to pull after Coraline bit into an apple and got an abscess. We treated it without antibiotics but it kept coming back. We spent hundreds, maybe even $1,000 on a holistic doctor and standard process supplements. I kept track of everything she ate, drank, and pooped for a month before the doctor told us he could no longer help us. I forced her to eat raw garlic and chew up disgusting tablets three times a day to help heal this. I did everything. everything. I did not want to get this surgery done. I was terrified. But even after giving her antibiotics the abscess kept coming back and she was hurting. For almost three months. It had to be done. It was probably a 30 minutes procedure. She drank an entire bottle of water then threw up three times and slept all day. She was fine the next day although upset about her teeth missing. She couldn't care less now. We see missing teeth and crowns everyday at the park, library, grocery store.

I am always here to help. I will tell you everything I know. I have read the books, blogs, forums, talked to Rami Bagel himself on his Facebook group.  I will do everything it takes to not go through this with our new baby but if we do, I have an amazing support system and all the information in the world to keep her healthy.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

The Placebo Effect & Veganism

Wow I'm so sorry I haven't updated this in so long! With warm weather upon us we have been at the lake/pool/amusement park constantly. I deleted my Facebook a little over a month ago and let me tell you, IT'S WONDERFUL! I have not been happier in over a year. I didn't have a Facebook when this journey began but made one to join the tooth decay groups and Natural Healing Co op. (A wonderful Instagram friend told me about it, thanks Jade!) Anyway, without the health groups always plaguing my existence and tracking my every meal, I have really been able to focus on the task at hand and the truth behind what we're dealing with. I was tired of feeling angry, empty, stressed, miserable and all around numb. Dreading every meal because it was a constant battle. "Please eat this egg. Please drink more milk! No we can't have a banana." Tears from both sides were shed constantly and we both just weren't happy.

So at 29 months, 1 week and 1 day Coraline weaned. I am so grateful our nursing relationship was mutual and she weaned when she felt comfortable. It was a wonderful process with no crying, no tantrums, just easy and peaceful. So having my body and boobs solely my responsibility now, I decided to change to a lifestyle that I had been desiring for a very very long time. I have many vegan friends and they can be quite pushy. Never rude to me, but always posting so many things that really had made me question milk, meat, eggs and cheese. Every time I found myself questioning these things all I had to do was take a quick glance in the tooth decay group to seek validation that the Weston Price way was the ONLY way to live. The truth is, whatever you believe, you can find evidence to back it up. If you want to believe in eating animals and drinking cow breast milk, look no further than Weston Price's studies. If you want to believe in eating a vegan lifestyle, watch Forks Over Knives or read The China Study. Weston Price has been proven wrong by "professionals", so has The China Study. So has every opinion. Everyone is going to believe something different because there will ALWAYS be evidence to back up your beliefs somewhere out there.

Coraline drank a lot of milk while weaning but after she had weaned, she didn't want it anymore at all. I always offered, but she just didn't want it. So every week I kept texting the farmer, " only half a gallon this week," or, "none this week." So finally I just cancelled our herd share. She does not want or ask for milk anymore at all. I do make her chocolate milk with cashew or coconut milk and cacao sometimes. Other than that, it's water or lemon water only. And guess what? Her stools went from yellow and grainy to completely normal overnight. She is sleeping TEN HOURS STRAIGHT! I am also letting her eat as much fruit as she wants. Apricots, bananas, apples, grapes, strawberries! You name it, she's eating it. It has been about 3 weeks and we are both so much happier. Eating is so joyful for us again. I have so much energy, jogging around the block twice a day, exercising every night, running around outside with her every day. The stress of such a strict diet on such a young girl was too much for us. Her teeth continued to decay, albeit slowly, despite my hopes and prayers. The placebo effect is so real and so strong. Every single time a new product came in the mail I would get this euphoria, almost like a drug. For weeks I would swear it was curing everything. The zinc was taking her red face rash away, the biodent was making them grow back, the Candistat was killing her candida. All of this was placebo for me. It was a huge hope that I kept insisting was happening because I wanted it SO badly. I have not seen any difference with any of them. I haven't given her any Living Streams products in months. I haven't forced her to take candistat in months. I haven't given her zinc in two weeks. Her rash still comes up after strawberries & tomatoes. Guess what? I just recently found out my husband had the same issue as a child! This is what these health groups do to people like me. I'm so naive and so gullible! Sometimes it is as easy as 'strawberries break her face out' and not "this mutation in her body causes the histamine to react with the saliva which is a sign of zinc deficiency" blah blah blah. Talk about making yourself crazy? Yes...I was going nuts. I am so much happier where we are now. My baby's smile is perfection to us and our family. She is growing, so intelligent, so happy and so healthy. Do you know she has never had a real fever? Or ear infection? Actually she's had a raspy cough maybe once or twice. I am so lucky to have such a healthy and happy child. Sometimes it's OKAY to accept things as they are and dwell solely on the POSITIVE aspects of this life. I am thrilled to be vegan finally. I have wanted this for so long. Coraline is eating predominately plant based too, but when my husband is eating meat she will steal a bite or two. We are still gluten free. One wonderful thing is that now that she can have pretty much whatever she wants (fruits mostly), she is much more easily swayed into eating vegetables. She has been eating celery, carrots, squash, spinach and beans. So many beans! She loves them!

So that's the update on our journey. I know a few people do follow my blog or find it through pinterest/google and I wanted to make sure you know where we are. I am so sorry for every one dealing with this pain. It is heartbreaking. Stay encouraged! Find the positives! LEAVE THE HEALTH GROUPS! Hell, leave Facebook :) Tooth decay is rampant in society today. In the south, 80-100% of our water is fluoridated. Dioxins are in our clothes, feminine products, diapers, perfumes, detergent and more! Please read this book to find out more about dioxins and decay. It is not our fault, it's only going to get worse in this country and we are doing all we can and more. Don't be stressed out, don't be so strict, give them a banana if they want one. They are only this little for a short while.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Excuse Me.

Excuse me if I'm staring,
But are your kids teeth missing too?
We're considering the option,
But there's so much to think through.
Excuse me for eaves dropping,
Did you say gluten free?
In a world of food allergies
That sounds heavenly to me!
Excuse me for asking,
But is your two year old still nursing?
Because In a day in age like this
It's as condemnable as cursing.
Excuse me for approaching you,
But is your toddler in a wrap?
It's nice to see an attached mother
Without her kid stuck on a strap.
Excuse me for repeating you
But did you say you DIDN'T hit?
It's wonderful that you have patience
When your child throws a fit.
Excuse for being nosey,
Is she still in our bed?
It's nice to have a united place
For you all to rest your head!
Excuse me for the questions,
But can we please meet again?
I don't want to seem intrusive,
But I could really use a friend.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

8 Months In.

It has been 8 months since we decided to try to reverse my daughter's tooth decay. We had an appointment to get caps and thank God we canceled it. I am so happy we have made it this far and have full faith that we will make it many more. This is no easy process, but being a mother isn't easy. It isn't always about what's most convenient or cheapest. When it comes to my child's future, I will do whatever it takes to make it as glorious as I've always envisioned it.

That being said, I do feel like my mind is a constant hamster wheel. It never stops. The anxiety is overwhelming. Vacations are stressful and I end up crying after every family visit or holiday. To constantly have to monitor every single piece of food that enters her body AND mine is the most difficult obstacle I've ever had to cross. The money for supplements and farm fresh food completely depletes our savings.To do this, to make this promise to yourself and your child, is not for the faint of heart. Difficult is an understatement. Without my friends going through this that I met from Cure Tooth Decay and Instagram, I would be a weeping mess.

Anyway, I have decided to switch up our routine a bit. Since working with Dr. Sunshine, I have really discovered how bad her candida overgrowth is. It is no secret that candida is a huge culprit behind tooth decay. So instead of focusing on the diet in Cure Tooth Decay, I'm focusing on the candida and hoping that will help her absorb nutrients and digest food better.

  • Bio-dent (standard process)
  • Catalyn (standard process)
  • Genestra HMF natogen probiotics
  • Bifido (living streams)
  • Zinc (from local health food store 15mg)
  • Candistat
  • diatomaceous earth in yogurt
  • vitamin d3
I take biotin, raw glandulars, kelp, vitamineral green (not consistently)
We have stopped with cell salts and a custom tincture we had made for her teeth with comfrey, nettle, turmeric & ginger because they tested as not beneficial for her specific case. This just clarifies to me that the candida is the issue.

Staples in our diet are bone broth, farm fresh eggs and meats and plenty of vegetables. Limited fruits, mostly berries. Lots of plain yogurt. Kombucha and kefir. Her favorites are sweet potatoes sliced and cooked in coconut oil and kale chips. We have these almost daily.

It is getting easier everyday and every month that passes is another month closer to them falling out on their own. Play dates are getting easier, I bring a cooler with me or we eat beforehand.The teeth do not bother her at all. She eats great, brushes great ( with holistic dental health store powder, diatomaceous earth & coconut oil). I also put a few drops of melaleuca on her stomach and feet before bed occasionally.

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Monday, April 7, 2014


Sometimes words just come to me. They always have. I was feeling particularly pitiful yesterday, but after writing this I felt so much better.

I'm not sorry I filter everything,
Like what you can and can not eat,
I'm not sorry I approach with hesitation
Every new friend that we meet.
But will their parents question me,
When I "discipline" you with care,
Even when you're screaming or crying,
And I simply stroke your hair.
Or when we go on play dates,
And all their snacks have GMOS,
Or when the ice cream truck comes jingling
And not regretfully, I say no.
I'm not sorry that I'm raising you,
To question all you see,
Because in a world like ours today,
It's important to plant the seed.
Our shampoos are laced with chemicals,
So we use none instead,
Our meat is injected with toxic things,
To keep it nice and red.
Our milk is full of hormones,
Our food of GMOs,
Chemicals are sprayed all in our skies
And even on our clothes!
I want you to know you're everything
You are my moon and stars
It's not easy to defy the norm,
In's REALLY hard!
I don't hit you so you'll fear me,
You are truly my best friend.
Some people can't accept that,
They think it's just a "trend".
I'll raise you as nature intended,
Keep you close to me while we sleep.
Nurse you until my body stops,
Even if I'm labeled a "creep".
It's not easy to get called a threat,
Because we choose a path without shots,
Or keep you out of public school,
Because we want you to form your own thoughts.
It's because you are the future,
And I'm still healing from my past.
But most of all because you're my baby...
And you'll grow up too fast. 

I'm not apologizing anymore. 

Tuesday, February 18, 2014


I haven't posted in a few days because there really wasn't anything to say. I haven't been able to get the supplements I have been eyeing, Dr. Sunshine is stumped as to what is up with Coraline's teeth, and she has been a little rough this week. Refusing all food, nursing more than I can keep up with, waking up all night long and taking FOREVER to go to sleep at night. (I'm talking 2-3am!) Well, finally business has picked up and I think we are at the tail end of this phase she is going through. I hope anyway. She went from eating broccoli, kefir, kale, carrots and squash to eating absolutely nothing. It's quite frustrating. I have to give her broth through a syringe where she used to drink the whole bowl. Anyway I was finally able to order two things I have really been hoping for! Catalyn from Standard Process and Green Pastures new product, Fermented Cod liver, skate, butter and coconut oil.

Catalyn was developed in 1929 to Royal Lee. I like to think of him as the Louis Pasteur of homeopathy. It is derived from defatted wheat germ, carrots, nutritional yeast, bovine adrenal, liver, spleen, and kidney, ovine spleen, dried pea (vine) juice, dried alfalfa juice, mushroom, oat flour, soy bean lecithin, and rice bran extract. Weston Price shares, "At the outset his product was provided at no charge solely for the health and welfare of his mother and intimate friends. However, because of the remarkable results the product achieved, the fame of this food concentrate spread rapidly. The volume of demand reached such proportions that he had to create a new company, the Vitamin Products Company."

There is a group of twenty or so women, maybe more, that I have grown close to throughout this journey. One of them shared with me that after 3 weeks on this amazing product her daughter's enamel had grown! I immediately knew I must order some. The other recommended product is Bio-dent and Dr. Sunshine is ordering that for us. Once again I'm very hopeful. I don't ever expect full recovery but I do expect her health to prosper and I am doing all I can to make sure that it does. The white specks on her bottom teeth have disappeared, her canines are whiter than they have ever been, and her molars look much much better than they did before. Every week brings brighter discoveries and I have no more room for sadness in my heart over this battle. I am succeeding and more importantly I am helping others, uniting us against the corruption that is Big Pharma. As far as taste goes, it isn't great but isn't bad either. It hasn't been too hard to get her to take it.

The banana carob FCLO? That's' another story. GAG.

Sunday, February 9, 2014


A four letter word.

Why is this added to our water? Why is this pushed for us to coat our children's teeth with and in our toothpaste? Why is it added to our supplements and prescriptions? Where did this toxin come from and what is their agenda? Lets take a look at the history of fluoride and it's ties to Nazi Germany

The first occurrence of fluoride being added to drinking water was in prison camps during Hitler's reign. Fluoride was used to make prisoners more docile and willing to accept their roles. It kept them from an uprising. The nazi could care less about the teeth of their prisoners, their goal was sterilization and submission. Any wonder fluoride is the main ingredient in Prozac? This is what is in your water! It is being forced on us. Not only does it caused kidney and thyroid failure, it is associated with lower IQ's and bone fractures.

"Even in small quantities, sodium fluoride is a deadly poison to which no effective antidote has been found. Every exterminator knows that it is the most efficient rat-killer. ... Sodium fluoride is entirely different from organic calcium-fluoro-phosphate needed by our bodies and provided by nature, in God`s great providence and love, to build and strengthen our bones and our teeth. This organic calcium-fluoro-phosphate, derived from proper foods, is an edible organic salt, insoluble in water and assimilable by the human body, whereas the non-organic sodium fluoride used in fluoridating water is instant poison to the body and fully water soluble" - Charles Perkins

The thyroid is a key component to tooth health and guess what teeth are? BONES. Still think ingesting this toxin in for our benefit? It's hard to escape unless you filter your entire home with Berkey or Reverse  Osmosis. We are currently renting so that isn't an option. As of now we are buying spring water in the gallons and using that for everything. However, there's a documentary called Tapped which states even those efforts are futile. I haven't watched it yet simply because ignorance is bliss. I can't know or I will drive myself crazy. My only hope now is to petition my local water authority and I urge you to do the same. Fluoride is a cost to them and with your help you can change your county and the lives of all it's residents. 

Effects of fluoride

kidney and liver damage
calcifaction of the pineal gland
lowered immune system function
lowered IQ’s in children

For a full list click here

As for now, we keep buying the spring water and filling up with my mother in law's well water when we go visit. Our water is also depleted of minerals so I always add in Concentrace.

I also like to add in crab apple flower essence when I'm feeling especially down. It really helps me feel better about my appearance and just life in general.