Thursday, September 26, 2013


For a week or two I was feeling very happy and hopeful. But slowly my elation is fading and I'm once again living in the present. Today Coraline was so grouchy. We met up with a few other moms at the park and she cried most of the time and wouldn't play with anyone else. She's 21 months, so I'm guessing its semi-normal to be ill and throw tantrums. My dilemma is I immediately think it's because her teeth are hurting her. It could be that she's tired, or irritated that she can't communicate what she wants. All I hear is, "my teeth hurt mommy. How could you let this happen to me?"

Tonight I feel like I failed. My husband is irritated at my constant worry over gluten contamination and sugar intake. My in laws are visiting soon and I know it will start a fight when they insist we go out to eat. I don't know what to make for dinner that SHE can have and my husband will eat. I feel like I'm doing more than anyone I know has ever tried and it's still not enough.

I want to get digital X-rays but my husband lost our insurance forms and Dr. Gardner still hasn't called us back with a trustworthy dentist. Did I mention that he told us that if a client rejects dental care, pediatric dentists are told in school to call DFACS? I am so worried about my child tonight. So angry this is happening to me. Every time another child smiles with their perfect teeth I just want to look away and hide. Every time Coraline smiles at a stranger I find a way to bring up gluten intolerance, as if I owe them an explanation.
All I have dreamed of is my daughter having the picture perfect childhood that I dreamed of. Self esteem so high that no man could ever knock her down. I feel like I'm failing.


  1. You are a wonderful mother. Coraline is a beautiful little girl and will have high self esteem because you do an outstanding job in teaching her that she is perfect.

  2. Well, that wasn’t your fault, Katie. Toothaches and all other sorts of aches are part of life, no matter how much you want to protect you daughter from them. It’s not for the lack of trying on your part, but there are just some things that are beyond our control. Cheer up!

    Karen Perry @ Brookside Dental Care